Over a period of at least 6 months, did you experience recurrent and intense sexual arousal from crossdressing, as manifested by fantasies, urges or behaviors?
Do the fantasies, sexual urges or behaviors cause clinically significant distress or impairment in social, occupational or other important areas of functioning?
Based on your answers, it is unlikely that you have transvestic disorder.
While it is unlikely that you have transvestic disorder, you are displaying a sign related to it. It may be important to talk to your doctor. Cross-dressing is not always considered a disorder. However, in case you dress in the clothes of the opposite gender to reach intense sexual gratification and if it causes impairment in daily functioning, a disorder may be present. People who suffer from transvestic disorder may feel anxious, depressed or ashamed. These feelings usually occur because their partner disapproves their behavior or they are worried about negative reactions from society.
Unfortunately, you are displaying the symptoms typically seen among individuals who have transvestic disorder. Seeking medical help and getting a diagnosis will help you understand what is needed to function better. Cross-dressing is mostly found in heterosexual men. Cross-dressing is not always a disorder and so it does not always need treatment. However, if you persistently experience intense sexual arousal from wearing or fantasizing about clothing normally worn by the opposite gender and it causes distress in day-to-day life, you may be diagnosed with the disorder. In this case, treatment may be required.
https://www.psychologytoday.com/intl/conditions/transvestic-disorder
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